help for covert harassment

Forums
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/mcforums
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/Cause_Stalking
http://peacepink.ning.com/
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/MCVictimsEU
http://mcvictimsworld.ning.com
href="http://tech.groups.yahoo.com/group/mindcontrolresearchforum/">http://tech.groups.yahoo.com/group/mindcontrolresearchforum/
http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/TIsUnited/

****FORUMS ARE FREQUENTLY LOADED WITH SPAM AND BOGUS POSTS IN AN EFFORT TO DISCREDIT VICTIMS***

Other help
http://www.freedomfchs.com http://www.wanttoknow.info/mindcontrolinformation
http://www.oasisturningpoint.org
http://www.us-government-torture.com/symptoms.html
http://www.multistalkervictims.org
http://www.surveillanceissues.com/http://www.stoporganizedstalking.org/rules_of_engagement.php
Yahoo group with technical information:http://tech.groups.yahoo.com/group/mindcontrolresearchforum
http://www.surveillanceissues.com/
href="http://www.multistalkervictims.org/cointeldocs.htm">http://www.multistalkervictims.org/cointeldocs.htm
http://www.wanttoknow.info/voicesinheadelectronicharassment
http://www.raven1.net/
http://www.thepetitionsite.com/3/help-cease-gang-stalking-and-electronic-harassment

Divine life

new threats

V2K (acoustic technology) has started up, the word is they are going to give me a stroke. They just keep repeating the words heart and stroke and hospital. They have done this for the past two nights. Im aware that people have claimed DEW's have been used to kill people with heart attacks, strokes, cancers. I believe it. I am so petrified I do ok to cover being used to it but inside I am absolutely scared. Their attacks are escalating and the gangstalking is increasing also. I believe they slandered me negatively in a sexual context. The reason I feel this is increasing in frequency I am getting unwanted attention from men I dont know and filthy looks from some men. When I go to the local gym this is standard behaviour from many males. Its increasing, it grosses me out, I just avoid eye-contact as much as possible but this must make me look guilty or something. Its hard to act normal in my world you have to have your guard up all the time. I shudder to think what lies have been told, but it feels like i can imagine. My strength is in the truth. I know it, God knows it thats all that matters to me so I dont let it get to me. I feel they are trying to push me indoors, i do avoid going out somewhat but Im not going to let them dictate my life.

COINTELPRO

COINTELPRO - its global
Cointelpro program being conducted on victims globally.

I read the link to the 1000 summaries of abuse and find lots of people with similar cases to my own. I emailed a lady from Texas with a really similar story to mine. She speaks of the same kinds of harassment I get. Hers has slowed down by the sounds of it so maybe there is hope . Im limiting my exposure to people as much as possible but going back to work soon, that should be fun no doubt. I have a very foreboding feeling that something bad is going to happen to me. God comforts me so much though, I never would have found Him if it wasn't for all this bad stuff. Its funny but there is a silver lining in every situation coz even when you cant find one in absolute despair God comes to you. I have seen and felt some amazing signs from Him in the almost two years since I found him. I was born and baptised a christian but never really found God, I believed He was up there....somewhere, but never comprehended His love or personal presence in my life. People tell stories about surviving untold horrors and finding amazing human strength; its not human strength its divine strength, power from our higher power. Its not good to ask why me as why does anyone suffer, I dont ask why me, I ask why is this happening in our world?? I dont take it personally coz thats what they count on, it can hurt much more if you take it personally and of course a common theme to all TI's is they are told the punishment is their fault. Psychologically it can be alot more devastating. I did this in the beginning, they try to convince you, you brought it on yourself. Before I was educated it was hell. It took me 3 years to find all the information about these assaults and other victims. Before that I thought I was the only person in the wrold to be experiencing this horror...I thought i must be, who does this to people? That was the hardest and weakest time I have had. I got thru that so I'll get thru the rest.